The Knowing 

I told you about my past before I let you sow seeds in the garden of my heart.  I showed you the scars, I let you touch them to prove to you that I was done fighting.  This isn’t the first time my body has housed men whose only intention was to stay the night…

Do you ever feel worthless? 

Do you ever feel worthless?

Why do you cry? 

Why do you cry?  Because the world isn’t perfect and it hurts when people expect me to be. Because the world believes I look much better with tears falling from my eyes than with a smile on my lips. Because I am losing the will to live. Because I am tired of self- sabotaging and…

Eternal Softness Of Self

Every night you are sleeping, your mother wonders why you never choose to find happiness in men Why you have chosen to grow your chest hair  And why you let people be careless with your body You are a sight for sour eyes to any man sane enough to drown in you Yet you make…

Survive. 

I’ve lost best friends and found angels who took their place.

Savage. 

​ I promise to hurt you to the point you won’t be able to see beyond the pain. 

Reflection.

​My God, can you see what this relationship is doing to you; to us? Were we really stupid enough to think that we could love only the good and ignore the bad? As if denying our pain would make us acceptable . Let us do ourselves a favour and favour ourselves; both our heaven and…

Identity 

I don’t know how I’ll look when I’m in love Will I look like the moon? A ball of waning light that comes alive only in the nighttime Will I look like the women before me? Unknown, full and empty at the same time Will I look like my mother? God I hope I don’t…

Terminal

​The truth about healing is that you must allow yourself to break to let the pain in. You must be willing to spend time alone, must go insane at least three times a week, can allow yourself to curse God in three languages then ask for forgiveness right after. Then you must make that phone…

Note to self (gentle reminder)

    You will meet them at every corner,  every stop. Every time you take a pause or a step forward, you will surely meet them. And they will paint a picture, an idea, anything to make them look larger than life and to make you smaller, to scare you away from achieving that dream,…